Wednesday, April 29, 2009

The Eventual Fall of the Titan and Her Heart



This was my first ever performance piece! The work is a part of my current series entitled "The Passionate Detox." This piece involves two inkjet prints and hand illustration using india inks and charcoal pastels.

The music used in the background appears in order as follows:

Living Together - by Circa Survive
Why We're Better Now - by The Outline
St. Broaderick In Antarctica - by The Sound Of Animals Fighting

Video taken by Bill Friedman

Sunday, April 26, 2009

...can we live together?

"It start's out like a season in reverse. A way to get your mind above it over words. Attaching these identities, erases things so happily recorded. Distress call code word is 'i want to live'."



i make it up as i go. i go away. To places i can only hide in other people's minds. i make it up as i go.


how can i have two completely different "me's?" what am i thinking?

you are... but you are also...


when did the tides shift? was someone going to tell me?

i'm tired of the guessing games. with you. with you. with me!

can't someone just be truthful?

Monday, April 20, 2009

I've Got Friends In All The Right Places

"I've Got Friends" - Manchester Orchestra

dirt in the ground is what I need
I got another one to tell you
and another one to make you believe
pity in the grass tried to be
the one you needed when I told you
that you wanted something bigger than me

I've got friends in all the right places
I know what they want
and I know they don't want me to stay
I said that I've got friends in all the right places
I know what they want
and I know they don't want me to stay

'cause you are not alive
when I need you
I need it quickly
in case you never know

I can't play where I'm not supposed to anyway

dirt in the ground is what I see
I need another reason why
I need another reason, tell me to breathe
the dirtier the sound, the best I breathe
I tried to do it all for you
it didn't do anything for me

'cause I've got friends in all the right places
I know what they want
and I know they don't want me to stay
I've got friends in all the right places
I know what they want
and I know they don't want me to stay

and you and I will find
that when I need you
I need it quickly
in fact, you'll never know

I've got friends in all the right places
I know what they want
and I know they don't want me to stay
I said that I've got friends in all the right places
I know what they want
and I know they don't want me to stay

Sunday, April 19, 2009

The Farthest Feeling

The guillotine just laughed again.

I found your note. In a stack of old school papers. I find it so intriguing to think that we thought we knew so much. I've leased my heart out for too many people for too long a time. Like these shoes, it's scuffed, dirty, and broken in. But regret is the farthest feeling from me.

I can't remember a day when I didn't smile. I suppose that's something to grip. But how long until the oil between my fingers takes its toll?

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Renewal.

This time of year we would normally be walking hand in hand along a country road, engulfed in each other's presence and love. while the times have changed, my heart hasn't. i'd still hold your hand, if you asked me to.

and i'd hold yours as well, if we could muster the courage.

Friday, April 10, 2009

Under The Surface

Sometimes I regret ever meeting you. But it's when the days that I am still able to make you smile come, I realize that I've found my purpose.

I enjoy being the villain.

I told you today that I'm not as good a person as you think I am, and that you'll know it before the end.

I meant it.

If only you knew how much I've longed for revenge. I'm not only proficiently creative in art, but in manipulation and deceit as well. It's unfortunate that you aren't able to see it. You could have saved yourself a lot of grief.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

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We are not watching the television. The television is watching us.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Simulacra

"It is all of metaphysics that is lost. no more mirror of being and appearances, of the real and its concept. No more imaginary coextensitivity: it is genetic miniaturization that is the dimension of simulation. The real is produced from miniaturized cells, matrices, and memory banks, models of control-- and it can be reproduced an indefinite number of times from these." -Jean Baudrilliard

Monday, April 6, 2009

I have nothing you want

23 years of patience.
23 years of practice.
23 years of pride.
23 years of sacrifices.
23 years of lies.
23 years of truth.
23 years of dreams.
23 years of failures.
23 years of hopes.
23 years of fears.
23 years of lust.
23 years of innocence.
23 years of pain.
23 years of pleasure.
23 years of friends.
23 years of enemies.
23 years of wondering.
23 years of belief.
23 years of doubt.
23 years of waiting.
23 years of wanting.
23 years of forgiveness.
23 years of grudges.
23 years of desire.
23 years of holding back.
23 years of love.

23 years of you.

now what do you plan to do?

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

and it starts, sometime around midnight

i long for it. i need it. but then i remind myself that it's not my choice to make anymore.